Sunny Day

Hello world, you are looking quite sunny today! Reporting from southern California the sun glazes down on me shining my computer screen up with happiness and joy. :) Okay so I have tons of homework and seemly at this moment in my life, my world is falling apart, but at this particular moment I am happier than I can possibly be. Is it because I am near one of my best friends who is enjoying this study time with me or is because I am at the best spot in the library by a sunny window looking out over the baseball diamond? Either way it still makes me happy and I am glad that I can have the opportunity to get away from my family (in my own car might I add! :) for the rest of the day. Man, there are some weird people here. Some guy is looking at really gross pictures on the Internet, in the public library...yeah so this is awkward. I am basically just procrastinating writing three essays for World History. That should be FUN!! Okay so it is completely my fault that I even have to write them right now as we were assigned these essays two months ago. Oh well. What can I say? I am a whacked out teenager writing to you from a very whacked out place. I live in Camazotz filled with mindless people going through mindless activities that they have no interest in. Students surround me studying and working hard in subjects that they despise yet decided to take. Sure Math, Science, English, History are all required subjects, but if you truly despise 6th period Aquatics why the heck are you taking that class? This is completely an assumption, but MOST and I say MOST NOT ALL people glide through life not really thinking or caring about what they are doing. I love World History provided that I don't have a lot of work, but it doesn't mean that I still don't LOVE it. It makes me happy to come to class everyday seeing my crazily wonderful teacher jumping for joy. Teachers that really care about what they are doing and their students are the best teachers in the world. I love my teacher because of the way he makes every student no matter how good of student feel like they are great just being themselves. If we all died tomorrow (which I hope we don't) I hope that he would truly know how much of influence he has had on my life and my decisions this past year. Without him I don't know if I would even liked history let alone feel happy coming to class everyday, most importantly I won't feel like I belonged. These kind of people make me believe that there is still hope for humanity. Oh a much sadder note, I want to pray for everyone in Boston and across the world that are suffering for what happened today. Today during a marathon, two explosions went off in Boston killing and injuring many. Please pray for everyone affected by this tragic event. All we can do is push through the tough stuff in order to get to the shining light at the end of the tunnel. Take care everyone. I hope that everyone is having an amazing day that is filled with happiness.
There was a time my world was filled with darkness, but today it is all filled with sunshine.

STUPID PEOPLE NEED TO DIE

 
So it has definitely been awhile since I have posted anything. Nothing really new with me going on, I am still in high school which sucks and I am still working through life. I post things not so I get followers or even views, basically I just use this as my outlet to vent about my life. Do you like my picture? I thought it was very funny and good for the kind of mood I am in right now. Today is Saturday and basically I was supposed to work on homework and knowing me I was lazy and watched Youtube videos instead of actually doing anything. Fast forward four hours and my parents are super mad at me because I was actually supposed to get something done today. Opps. I don't even get why they care like I was actually going to do anything anyways. They are like, "You need to focus more on school!!" Yell...Yell..Yell.. and blah and blah. Yeah I kind of like to zone out in those kind of conversations. I know I suck, can I go back to my room to do nothing? Or and they like, "You need to stop focusing on yourself and stop being so spoiled!!" Okay first off I am a teenager, that is kind of all I think about and secondly aren't you the ones who spoiled me in the first place? Yeah, I know it is kind of mean, but seriously I just hate it the way they control my life. They tell me what to do and how I should do it. They had all of these great plans for me when I was born and think that when I somehow didn't turn out as smart or wonderful as they hoped those dreams disappeared. I am sorry for being the way I am, okay? The worst part is all of the idiots at school feel like it is "their duty" to friggin tell me who I should be. I told my English teacher that I couldn't do IB (a really hard course) because it would kill me and she told me that I actually could do it, but I am just a stresser. Okay, first off you don't know me so don't make assumptions about me. Next I NEVER friggin asked for your opinion!! Oh and my so my math teacher also assumes that I wanted to know that he believes that I have low confidence. That is so wonderful, I am so glad that you told me that... I know that I don't hate my parents, but sometimes they can just get on my case for no reason. Like earlier they were all like, "What is wrong?" Oh like suddenly I would friggin know what is wrong with me. I have no idea.. Honestly, I wished I did. Nothing especially bad happened to me in fact I am pretty sure I only talked to like one person besides my family members, but for no reason I felt like I was going to kill myself. I know that would never happen, but sometimes I can really sad. I wish for my life to be different, but I guess I just keep having a positive outlook on life or pretending that I do. My parents can't believe that I feel sorry for myself and they think that I am pathetic for sitting in my room wishing for a better life as I live a pretty good life. I am not complaining by any means. I have two loving parents, a roof over my head, a computer, expensive things, clothes, food on the table, a car, etc. For the most part I have everything that I have ever wanted, but there is still something missing. I want to go to a Third World country so that I can try to help people as that is what really makes me happy. I help people now, but I want to do so much more than just the simple things that I do around school and my community. More things to vent about? Hmm... people suck. Let's talk about the stupid people at my school who flip their hair and they they are the hottest people on the planet. Oh yeah, everyone LOVES those people. I live in the southern California area and people are so stupid. I was walking around my neighborhood, just spending a minute by myself and these little kids probably in middle school were just staring at me with their mouths open. I asked them if they had ever seen a person walk before and they just continued to talk among themselves wondering who I was. Okay so maybe I don't go out around my neighborhood much, but still it was almost like I wasn't even there. Like they were behind a glass window that I couldn't see or hear them through. Whatever, I just told them to buzz off. The sad part is that those same kids will go to high school and into life torturing people like me that friggin hate them. I don't hate kids, in fact I love babysitting and hanging out with little kids, but people can be especially stupid here. I hate it here and always have if you read my very first blog posts. Oh the worst part is all of the people that act like my friends are completely fake. Oh like they honestly mean that they like your outfit, that is cute. They only CARE ABOUT THEMSELVES!!! They want you to say that they look wonderful and how beautiful they are. They need YOU to make them feel like they are special. They don't actually care about you. I have had people flat out say they hate me, but somehow the fact that they pretend to like me is way worst that if they just go out and say it. Anyways I think I am pretty much out of things to vent about. I hope whoever is reading this has a wonderful day. :) Unless you are a stupid person from school, because then you can buzz off. More to come next time :)

Well, Yeah...

So, anyways I know that I haven't exactly been writing very much in here, but guess what? That is OKAY! Calm down people, anyway it isn't like anyone actually reads this thing, but I like that way. It makes me feel like I am all alone and like I belong. This is MY blog and I can feel free do whatever I wish in it! Yay, go crazy for me. I am on the road again, yep. Location this time is South Dakota. Yes, Mt. Rushmore here we come! So, here in South Dakota it is very different, okay well every place in the whole world is very different from well every other place in the world. I love my piece of the world, but I do enjoy every little piece I get to see more of. Besides the well-known attractions such as Mt. Rushmore, Crazy Horse, and some of the known caves there really isn't much to do in South Dakota. I do enjoy shopping around with my mom and hanging out with my family. It is fun to just be a kid again, you know what I mean? When you get to that age that you feel like you are growing up just to fast and you can't slow it down. It is like you are a roller coaster going the speed of light and no matter how long and loudly you scream there is no way that coaster is slowing down just for you. I HATE change I don't care what it is, but I hate change. Okay, yes changing your clothes is always a MUST, but changing locations, schools, getting a driver's license, getting married, boyfriends, first kisses, first dates, well let's just GO WITH EVERYTHING IN THE WHOLE WORLD scares me!!! Yes, there are a few exceptions like hmmmm. well I am going to make a list of things that I like or love.

The LIST of things that I like or LOVE:
1. Roller Coasters
2. Silverwood
3. Ice cream
4. Movies
5. Books
6. Really hot guys (hhaha, but yes.) :P
7. Computers
8. Minnie ( my car)
9. Collecting key chains for Minnie
10. My Dad
11. My Mom
12. My Cousin
13. My dog
14. My cat
15. My other cat
16. My horses
17. Ally ( my best friend)
18. T.V.
19. Time
20. My math teacher
21. My brother
22. Summer
23. Fall
24. Swimming
25. The WATER! :D :D
26. Writing
27. Going to the library
28. Listening to music!! LOVE LOVE LOVE!!! LOVE! LOVE.
29. Holland
30. Europe
31. Trains
32. Slides
33. My bed
34. Walking my dog
35. Walking in general
36. Shopping with my mom
37. Shopping in general
38. My pink shoes!
39. My lucky converse
40. Doing things scare me (kinda)
41. Las Vegas
42. Gambling on horse races
43. Canada
44. New York
45. San Diego pier
46. Seaport Village


Alright, I am going to go watch a movie now. I will continue my list later. :D

Your Actions Can Play a HUGE Role in Your Life

What if you were peer pressured to do everything in your life? What if you couldn't think for yourself and you had to follow the options and thoughts of everyone around you? Sure, you love everyone around you which is probably the reason you surround yourself with those particular people, but if you couldn't make your own decisions about anything EVER what do you think would happen to you? Well you wouldn't be a very interesting person. Most teenagers and kids nowadays feel peer pressured to do most things in their life, but eventually those kids grow out of what is happening to them now and they decide some point in life that they are going to make their own decisions and be independent. Of course, I am still a whacked out teenager, but things that have happened to me and probably will happen in my life have made me think more carefully about the things I do and how my actions can affect other people around me. Sure, I am a negative person who is just as whacked out as any other teenager out there, but I don't want to be peer pressured as much as any other kid out there. I try everyday of my life to not follow the crowd and actually be an individual. I used to be basically in love with this guy, but he didn't know it and I thought the world revolved around him. Looking back at myself I was stupid, but again I was just being myself and a teenager. I am so glad that after spending half of my high school year cooing over him that I found out who and what he truly was. Which like most teenage guys out there a cheese head. He was a jerk and yet after all of the time I spent thinking that I was in love with him and basically watching his every move I only found out who he truly was by my friend. My friend although not one of my good friends, pointed out something really important to me that I had come to overlook in this guy because somehow I had already made up my mind that he was perfect. Alright, so I have been watching all of these movies about teenagers getting pregnant and having children. Of course, I am not pregnant nor will I probably ever be in my teenage years, but it got me to think about all of the kids out there that are peer pressured into having sex and then getting pregnant. I just want to talk about this issue today because more and more younger children are engaging in sexual activities and the world and adults choose to turn their backs and pretend that nothing is happening. Of course, it is a little awkward discussing this with you and although you may not see me as your friend I am and you can confide in me. You, whoever is reading this, I don't care who you are but you are my friend and I want you to trust me. You don't need sex or some stupid guy that only wants sex in your life. You want to be independent, you want to be a individual and recognized? Do something meaningful with your life and don't throw it away over just some guy. Sure, you may be "in love" with him and think that having sex is the only way to show how much you care about this guy, but trust me you don't need to have sex in order to prove to him, yourself, or the whole world that you are in love. Just being around him and in love can prove to him and yourself that you are in love with him as well as the whole world. If this guy only wants to stay with you because he thinks that he is going to have sex with you someday, do the smart thing and break up with him! It is better than giving in to some guy and having sex then having a baby and he leaving you. Okay, you may be careful about what you doing and think why should I listen to some whacked out teenager online? She is just like me and has feelings too and how don't I know that she is having sex after she is done writing this entry? Let me tell you first off I am not even dating someone, but not only that I don't want to have sex yet. I know that I am not ready to take such a big step in a different life and I know that I am not like that. Even if you think you are being careful and taking the necessary  precautions you could very well get pregnant. Do you understand how much that could change your life? Oh hang on guys it could change your lives too not just the girls. If you do decide to stick around you guys then you have HUGE responsibilities to think of. If you are thinking of," Well, I have big responsibilities now taking care of my sick puppy." or whatever you can think of.  Two words. THINK AGAIN. First off, you would have to stay with the mother no matter even if you realize down the road that you don't truly love her. You still have to stay with her no matter what. Not only that your life will get insane. So many options, abortion, having the baby, adoption, keeping the baby. Everything will be changed forever. I just think I wanted to write something about this after seeing the film Mom at Sixteen. Not only are movies and T.V. shows a big part of what teenagers, kids, and people do today and I think that we need to put down the T.V. remote and realize that we need to think for ourselves instead of following the lead of other people whether they be your best friends, role models, or just people on T.V. You need to think about what your actions could bring before you act. Well, on that note I hope you will start to think differently about what you do in your life. Good luck and please remember that I am always here for you. Just one key stroke away. :) 

WHAT ARE YOU DOING READING THE TITLE.... READ THE POST DUMBY!!!

Hello,
So, it seems like I haven't kept to my promise about entering in something for you to read every week. Oh, well. What are you going to do? Anyway, I haven't really been up to much lately. I went back to my hometown to stay with my dad and cousin. So, I was on the road again for awhile last week. It seemed like I didn't have control over my whole life so I decided to prove to myself that I could be independent by doing something that I could do for myself and prove to myself that I am in control of me. So, I have always wanted to be skinny than the weight I am. Which is none of your bussiness by the way. Never ask a lady what her weight is. Didn't your parents teach you any manners. Anyway, back to the subject at hand so, I decided to go on diet. I have always hated running or any sort of physical activity so, I decided that going on a diet would be the best solution. So, I looked over the book and thought, "Hey, this can't be that hard. All I have to do is eat and not eat anything that I am not supposed to eat." WRONG! Okay, so yes it is basically what I said above, but when your dad bakes muffins and all of this really delicious food what are you supposed to do? I am not a quiter and will NOT give in to temptations, but I couldn't help thinking while sitting on the couch watching America's Got Talent listening to every sound and crunch of the squeezy, gooey Cinnamon rolls that maybe just maybe I was missing something really good that could have been mine in seconds. Then I look through Teen Vogue and Seventeen and realize that I want to be one of those skinny, glamourous girls smiling in the photos. So, yes I would NEVER be part of the crowd and would never want to be skinny just because everyone else was or just because I wanted to look somewhat like some of the girls that wander the halls of my high school with their arms wrapped around some cheesehead guy drooling over them. NEVER! So, yes reading back over that I sound a wee bit childish, but really I don't want to be those idiot girls. Honestly, if we are speaking honestly here. Seriously if you are one of those girls reading this right now it is STILL a free country you are more than welcome to leave. Hey, you were more than welcome to leave three paragraphs ago. So, honestly speaking I don't even think those girls want to be where they are right. Being a girl myself I think that no girl would ever reach that ultimate low and just be arm candy for some dumb guy. And no I am not a "guy hater" I am actually quite the sucker for love. I do watch romantic movies and hope to myself that someday some magical guy will come around and just be there for me watching my favorite movies over and over again. Then, reality hits and I realize that that guy doesn't exist in this realm and probably never will so, move on and just write out all of your feelings in this mindless blog that no one even reads. Sure hey I don't ask for people to read this, but honestly it gives me some sort of comfort knowing that people are actually reading this and knowing that some whacked out teenage girl who has nothing better to do than write weird junk in a blog is out there. So for you guys that are turned on by someone independent free spirted and must I admit beautiful whacked out girl yes, I am here. Hahha.. Wow.... I actually wrote hahah to myself or whoever you are. And no I am not telling you where I am right now and what color my shirt is that I am wearing. Okay, back to the subject at hand well actually is there ever really a subject I discuss in this blog? No, not really... Maybe I should... No, scratch that I would actually have to think before writing in here. Hmm.... well did I have ever tell you why I don't want to drive? Okay, well before you judge I actually I am a good driver and I don't run over anything unless you are some freaking dude on the side of road. Just kidding. Maybe... Anyway, I don't want to drive because probably somewhere deep inside me I feel like I could be responsible for whatever happened out there. Okay, so honestly I don't think I would probably crash my car and kill myself and whoever is with me, but I am scared that maybe I could. I am working on not being so scared anymore. Yes, I know it is hard to believe, but yes even I am scared of a lot of things. I don't know why, what is seriously the worst that could happen? Oh, besides dying and lossing everything. Well, the reason I won't drive still remains a mystery, because come closer I am going to tell you a secret.....I DON'T EVEN KNOW!!! Yes, it is true even the great and fantastic whacked out teenager ( Maybe I should rename my blog that) doesn't even know the answer that question. Oh, well guess it will remain one of life's biggest mysteries that and where Big Foot is. Hahah. Nope, I can't be serious. Don't hate, Don't do drugs, Don't smoke, of course drink when life sucks, but DO LOVE! Hahha, just kidding about that drinking one please don't drink if you are under..........99. For those of you under 99 don't do it!!! I warn you all if you do it I will find you!!! Hhaha. Just live life, you only die once. Unless... you are a cat, dog, zombie, vampire, or anything other sort of weird supernatural thing out there and beyond!!! May the Force Be With YOU!!! Goodbye....


BYE!!!!! :P

JUST LIVE!

Well, it has been quite hectic recently. First off, I had not only one, but two A.P tests to take this week and let’s just say I am glad that I didn’t die of an anxiety attack. I cannot wait until this year is just over with! Then, I can just hang out on the lake with a good read and lots of classical rock and roll music. :D I am so happy and excited just for that!! I just want to live in the moment though. So, currently I am enjoying a stress free weekend and plan on reading Brave New World for my English teacher when I go back to school this week. Although, I got into a fight with this stupid person in a really idiotic class and I will have to face her on Monday I just have to be the bigger person and ignore her. OMGOSH!!! THREE MORE WEEKS UNTIL THE END OF THE SCHOOL YEAR!!!! YAYYAYAYAYYAYAY!!! I am going to try to write in here every week, let’s see how this will go…. Hahha


Just live life! :D

Glad to Be Me

Well, it has been quite awhile I know that. The last time I wrote anything in this blog, about a year ago, I was different then. Okay, well maybe not that different, but things have definitely changed. I have learned so many new things that I can’t even begin to write down. I went across seas, to the Netherlands a few weeks ago. Wow, was that an experience. Everything was so different and well just nicer. I loved it there and someday I know that I will return and tour the city on my own terms. Although, some of the time I enjoyed traveling the city and seeing the sights with the rest of my group the most fun I ever had was just wandering off by myself. I got to listen to the noises of the city and wander into European shops that were all foreign to me. I didn’t have to wait for my friends to finish buying souvenirs or have them wait for me because it was just me. I can’t wait until I get my education finished and my career on its feet so then I can just travel around the world by myself. I don’t have to be dragged down by a schedule or told how much time I have to see the city and I know that I will love that. I have learned how strong I am and how much I don’t need anyone else to be happy. I have grown to hate my new school and I cannot wait until this year is just over with. I am done with the annoying girls and their stupid purses that look like they can fit little Chihuahuas in them. I have learned how artsy I really am and for that I am glad to be me.

Dear World,
What is my life going to be like four years from now, 10 years from now? What does it look like?Will I make it in the world? Sometimes I feel so lost without a clue about what is my next move. Now that I have started a new school, I feel like I should have more people to lean towards when I feel lost, but yet I don't. At times, I sometimes think I want to be one of the popular girls with friends, but in reality they are not real or even nice. I don't want to be those girls Ever. I am going to do great things someday, I know it. I am a wonderful person who will eventually find where I belong.

Do You Think?

Do you think anybody knows this me writing these letters? Do people really know I even exist? Do I walk down my school hallways invisible? When I speak do people really listen?
Do they hear me ? I want to make a difference in this world. School is interesting. I like to think of it as a scientific experiment. I don't know what the outcome will be. I am unsure of the future just as unsure I am of what this week will bring. I like all of my teachers. I enter in the classrooms more mature and willing to learn then most of my other peers. At lunch, I sit with my friend and watch as people mill around the school. I wonder what they think and what they do. I see immature and crude students yelling obnoxious comments at passing students. I watch in wonder how they can just not even acknowledge school and their lives.
I look at students and wonder what their lives will be like after high school. I know what I want and how far I have to go to achieve it, but I don't know if I can do it. I am not yet confident in what I do. So far, I have enjoyed school. Today, unfortunately I got sick and am writing this with a head that feels like it might explode at any moment. I have joined four clubs which include the Drama Club, California Scholarship Federation, Reader's Club, and the Key Club.
The Key Club is an organization that offers community service activities and how to make an impact on the world today. Since I feel like I might explode or implode at any moment, I am signing off for today.

The Future

Well, the day has finally arrived and shortly I will be walking down the long hallways of a brand new school. I remember when the decision had been made that I would go to this school and I was genuinely excited, but now that the day has finally arrived I don't want to go. Nervous and scared jitters run up and down my body convincing my mind that I will fail. Although, this is completely without a doubt not even close to a truth, I still have this voice booming inside of my head convincing me otherwise. Somehow, I can't seem to get rid of this looming voice inside of me. On August 10th, I will walk down those halls feeling scared of the future ahead of me, hopefully in the years to come I will feel self-assured and hopeful for the bright future ahead of me. Today though, I have no idea what tomorrow will bring and am dreading the fast approaching doomsday.

Pressures

I keep pressuring myself to get educated on other people's fails at high school,

so I don't make any of the same mistakes. It is kind of ridiculous though, since by making mistakes I can learn and grow. Without making any mistakes, I am not growing. Am I ? I reading all of these articles and books about adults looking back on their high school experiences and realizing their mistakes and faults. Before, entering into high school, I want to learn some of the things teenagers often run into while in high school. Yes, I do know that I examine this way too closely, but you must understand that I don't want to use up my four years and have regrets. I have recently been reading an interesting book about a high school senior who makes a wish and is able to talk to her freshman self. Magically, she is able to talk to her freshman self and convince her younger self to switch around her life. The senior starts seeing slight improvements in her life as the freshman starts making changes. The senior had spent the whole three and half years not paying serious attention to school,but only to her boyfriend that dumped her before prom. Without him she suddenly is lost and realizes that she is going to a horrible college. Without the blindness of love, she is suddenly aware of where her life is going. Even though I am nothing like the character in this book,I don't want to make the same mistakes that she had regretted at the end of high school. Of course, that would never happen because I am so focused about school work. Even though I like love, I would never give up for someone. I suppose that is harsh, but think about it. If suddenly meet a handsome guy that swept me off my feet and I was blinded by pure bliss, I wouldn't just throw my books over my shoulder without a second glance. I am serious about school and getting into a good college. I push myself and needlessly fret about stuff that is going to happen in the future. When I am crashed on the couch frying my brain cells, I have this looming cloud over my head reminding me of things I have to do. I put this huge pressure on essays and reports, because I think that if I don't get a perfect paper I won't get into a good college. My life will end up nowhere. Nowhere...... the word drifts through my head making myself turn into this person that is constantly worried. Instead of taking care of these things, I procrastinate and wait hoping and wishing that somehow they will magically go away. Instead of having the luxury of spending two weeks working on papers, I spend the very last second scribbling away. Sometimes, I get a B and sometimes I can get an A. I guess I don't stop procrastinating because somehow things turn out. I want enter into high school a free-spirited and worry-free young woman. Perhaps, things won't turn out exactly as planned, but that is the fun of it. Nothing is the end of the world.
If I don't get an A, I dust myself off and try again. Life will move on and before I know it
the past will be a blur. It won't matter if I got a B on my History test nor will it matter if
the cute guy in my driver's ed will notice me, because throughout all of crazy things
that I face in the coming years it will help me become who I will be.

A sun behind the dark, cloudy days

After watching a heartfelt romantic movie, I realized that I have my whole life ahead of  me to find true love.
Although, I had thrown myself at someone I had thought was truly my love and had my heart crushed by a semi-truck, I know that there is someone that is meant for me out there. Instead of yelling and screaming out my anger, I let it go. Everyday I get up, breathe deeply, and know that even if today isn't a good day there is always tomorrow. There is always a sun behind the dark,cloudy days. Someone out there is made for me.
Even though, it probably wouldn't be any of my next loves and heartbreaks, he is out there.

Someday..

Do you know how some people just follow the leader and never truly stop and think about their lives? After school is completed, people go out into the world and find lives of their own. Is it really a life though? They continuously do the same thing day after day. I don't want to be one of those "people". I want to go out into the world and explore, find myself. Some people live their whole lives without truly knowing who they are inside.
I understand that because I am young, I don't know who I am at this point in my life, but someday I will find myself. Someday I will find someone who accepts me for me. I used to and probably still do, try to make people like me by being somebody I am not. Yet, that isn't true friendship or love, those people simply care about you because they believe you are somebody you aren't. When I head off onto my new path of life in high school, I hope that I will come to understanding of myself. It is a huge ambition, but I think I have what it takes to make it. One of my biggest obstacles, is that I can do a lot of different things, but I don't because I don't truly believe in myself. I have to believe that I can do something and I will succeed.

Picture Perfect

What is picture perfect? Is there such a thing as PERFECT ?
No, perfect doesn't exist. I have come to terms about perfect. The world has this image of a picture perfect person,someone that is skinny and beautiful. Young girls everywhere strive to be this "picture perfect" person. That person doesn't exist ! This image fills the minds of people everywhere because of what they see on T.V. and in magazines. Those people are fictional. They don't exist in everyday life. You won't see them when you walk to work or ride your bike around the neighborhood. I have always strived to be one of this "perfect" people. I realize that I am perfect the way I am. Why should I be like someone else when I can be me? Then the world would be like Camazotz. There would be no fun in the world. Although, I need to shed a few pounds, I am perfect the way I am. I don't need to look for others approval. People I knew wouldn't want to hang out with me because they thought I was weird or strange. Well, guess what? Weird is what makes people unique. So, what ? Is there a problem with unique ?
No! At least I am not like those people that thought I was weird. They are not interesting or weird , they are dumb and ordinary.
Nothing is special or unique about them.
One of my goals in life is to accept myself for who I am and be okay with it. At this point, I am just starting to accept and love myself.

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                                   "This is my idea of happiness." — Jamie B. on Twitter
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Hello ! Just felt like throwing that out there :P Anyway, I have been so busy with my head stuck in Anna and the French Kiss by Stephanie Perkins! She is an amazing author !! If you have NOT read this book, I am sorry you live under a rock. You can find this at ANY library or at ANY bookshop on this planet.
On to the next topic of my discussion. I am just getting over my closure with some dumb jerk. I don't if you are reading this "dumb jerk", but I don't care because this my blog and I want to share my feelings with the rest of the world. Anyway, I have no idea why he did this to me. I am actually still wondering that , but whatever you lose some and you win some. His lost.

Oh guess what??! You can tell I am jumping up and down right now. :P I am going to a real high school next year!! So for those of you that are lost right now. I go to an online school for now, but in the fall I will be entering into 9th grade in a local school in my area. I am really excited ! I will be creating all new posts about "Stories from High School". So look for that around August. INSANE!! School in August?!?!? August 10th is the first official day of school . Who goes to school in AUGUST?!?

What else?? Oh yeah, MOVIES!! Movies are my second favorite activity to do. ( Reading is the first. ) I am kind of excited for the newest Freddie Highmore movie, The Art of Getting By, also starring Emma Roberts. Freddie Highmore is an amazing actor and I love him to pieces. Yes, I am a freak and proud of it. Everyone thought I was insane to love Freddie , but google him now  and see how hott he is.  Now who is CRAZY ??!

Ooooo, good question. The reason for this post being so enormous is because I just felt like writing a lot today. Also, I just checked out Stephanie Perkins blog and loved it because it was so long and wonderful !

                                                               The magic of reading

STARS!!

Hey! British Freak here ready to report any news on STARS!! Alright, what is with Demi Lovato?
She went under the radar a few months ago because of some depression issue and is now working her way back to the top.  Although, I am not a huge fan of Demi's I wish her the best in her recovery. Now on to Selena Gomez!! I don't know if you guys know that I am big fan of Selena's. Yes, I do love 80's and 70's music which is quite unusual for teenager , but I like unusual.
Anyways, it might be hard to believe that I like present time music as well, but it is true.
Selena Gomez is a wonderful person that is always trying to help out the world . I am sad to see that she is dating Justin Bieber now. She is too good for him and I believe that she is just doing it for publicity. That is it for now! See ya later !

No Showers

Today, was my birthday. I always enjoy my birthday. Happy Cinco De Mayo ! Interesting enough it always , ALWAYS rains on my birthday. It was world breaking history, it didn't rain today!!

Until next time,

The British freak

The Big Event

Well, the day has finally arrived. The day when I go out and buy the magazines from the Royal Wedding!! I always love reading People , but now it just so much better !! I was supposed to have this up yesterday, but I forgot . :)

The Royal Fanatic

Romeo and Juliet

I just watched Romeo and Juliet. Man, such passion and such love. I have watched the 1968 version, West Side Story, and the 1996 version with Leonardo DiCaprio. The 1996 version is a little weird , but Leonardo is so hot in the movie you can put aside the weirdness.

Song addicted to right now : You and Me - The Wannadies
First heard it from Romeo + Juliet - 1996 version

Until next time,

Romeo and Juliet fan

The Royal Wedding

The royal wedding. Everybody is talking about it. Wow, I just loved that wedding dress. So, beautiful. I think they are so down to earth people. Prince William even went outside and shook people's hands before the ceremony .

HATS, HATS , and HATS!!!! Nobody does it like the British. Did you see the kisses !?? British tend to be not very public people with their emotions. When they kissed on the balcony , not once , but twice it was so romantic ! This wedding will live on forever. People will ask you years from now, "Where were you when Prince William and Kate got married?"

Until next time,

The British freak